When I was staying with my grandmother for a bit, I was online playing a sort of social space for meeting new people. During this time I met someone who eventually became this huge part of my life. I remember having my avatar standing there dancing and there probably the biggest thing to happen for my happiness in a long time came along. It was another gamer that enjoyed the same social space and she happened to find my dancing avatar cute. The song I was dancing to is called Chain Swing. She began to talk to me first and I was pretty nervous sitting there that I almost logged out. I’m glad I didn’t decide to run away because we instantly hit it off and everything we talked about were all the things we had in common. I didn’t know know if this person would stay around long due to the pressures of online chat rooms and the types of creeps that lurk but we both took a chance and it paid off. We would spend each day meeting up on the social space and sending messages back and forth. One day she opted to give me her phone number and to her surprise I reciprocated the gesture but with a slight guard up which I am sure she was feeling uneasy at first too. The first two days started off with texting and eventually I have her a call, she immediately ignored it but told me that she was scared because it was unexpected. I admit I didn’t tell her I was calling so her fear is justified. We spent that entire month of December devoting all our free time talking back and forth until that amazing day came. On January 14th 2010 we made it official, we became a couple albeit it was long distance but I didn’t care because she was all I could think about and all I wanted. It was tough dating in separate states seeing as how she was in Maine and me Pennsylvania but we made it work. We would video chat, text and talk on the phone, we would even play games together just to stay close as much as possible. Of course people tried to get in the middle but it didn’t stop us nor did we give anyone attention. The first time we video chatted I remember looking at the huge smile she had on her face and her dog Sam was there just being all nosey. I got so nervous in the beginning from all the excitement hitting me at once. Our relationship wasn’t without it’s fair share of arguments but we always made it through, we made sure to work it out before throwing anything away over trivial things. The days she was in school were tough seeing as how I couldn’t speak to her until her lunch period or after 2:15pm when she got out. Lunch conversations were great because I always asked what she was eating and how did she like it? I can still hear the munching sounds perfectly and her little chuckles when I ask her those questions. My favorite lunch moment is her asking someone at the counter for a big chocolate chip cookie because she was detailed in how she asked and I could tell she really wanted it. When spring hit we made plans for me to come up to visit and bring her back with me for two weeks. I was excited to go not just for her but also because I was curious to see what her small town looked like. As the time to my trip drew closer our bond got stronger and stronger, I knew I had found the right one. When I got my bus ticket I immediately called her and let her know that all of this is real, I’ll be there and we will have the best time together. The 19 hour trip was long but totally worth it. When summer got arrived I was not letting anything stop me from seeing my girlfriend, I had my snacks and blanket ready for this trip and when I finally departed I could do nothing but smile. I arrived in Bangor Maine which was my last is transfer stop but due to my current bus arriving late I missed the next one so I was stuck. I called her to see if anyone could come and get me but she told me no one could drive the 3 hours on short notice. I got news from her that a cousin lived 5 mins from the bus station with her boyfriend and they let me stay there the couple days until my girlfriend met me in Bangor. I was relieved to have a safe place to stay and I was comfortable. They made sure I had all that I needed and that I didn’t spend any of the money I had with me. When it came time to head back home with her I waited for her bus to arrive in Bangor before I went to the station. She made it safely and the walk to the station had me power walking to see her. I walked into the station and there she was sitting down with a smile and blushing so hard, she wearing a black and white short sleeve plaid shirt and a pair of black capris. I thought she was the prettiest girl in the room at that moment and my heart fluttered. During the ride home we spent the whole trip talking and getting to know each other more, in person the conversations were more detailed and we found even more things that we enjoyed. My mother was happy to see her once we made it back to Philadelphia, she met us at the station to ensure we got back safely but all I could think about is that she was finally here. It took some time to get used to how things worked in Pennsylvania but she adapted quickly, those two weeks were just flying by but we had so much fun. When it came close to her having to go back she informed her family that she was going to stay but they already knew that she would want to so they were prepared to gather her things and bring them. The amount of time we spent living together has been a ride, she was there for every single thing that has happened since then like my mother & grandmother’s passing and my sister getting sick. To this day she is still here helping me out with things and even though we aren’t together now we still work together for my sister’s health. I would have made it through some of these intense times without her and I am sure there will be more to come and that’s ok because I know she has my back.
I’ve been getting the utmost support from someone really close to me. She has been really good with asking me about my mental health and just my days in general. I think it has been getting to her that I don’t really take too much time for myself aside from my streaming life whenever I can. We talk every day and our conversations are just as awesome and sometimes childish but all in fun. I haven’t really made posts concerning other people in a positive light but this will be the first of many for how I proceed forward with my blog. I can’t express the gratitude I have for her and how closely she follows my writings, it makes me feel like I genuinely have people who can feel what I write and what I deal with. I want our friendship to continue and hopefully she feels the same. I remember the video she made of her preordering my book and how excited she was to receive it. I can still see the big smile and excitement she had when she left the store with her receipt in tow. If I remember correctly she also made a special area on her desk in front of all her streaming equipment just so my book can always be close by. I care for her dearly and I know we will be friends for many moons to come.
I spent the last week being under the weather and it was a terrible time. For a good while it felt like I wasn’t going to make it but I fought through it. When I was going through this rough time I still had some important tasks at hand, I remember needing to run a big errand for my sister while still packing things for the move. I had the hardest time getting things going, at one point it felt as if I were going to pass out from the loss of breath and constant throbbing in my head. I did the best I could do with my condition and I somehow managed to survive the ordeal, I don’t think I’d be willing to attempt any sudden activities in that situation again unless I absolutely need to have it done. I spent my weekend keeping my health in order simply because I was worried that I may need to see someone. I tend to get paranoid from time to time whenever I recover from an issue involving my health. At the moment of me typing this I am just falling back from a stressful yet eventful week and it is some much needed me time. Starting monday it will be back to errands and hopefully my normal routine. I am not typing this looking for a pat on the back or sympathy, I am putting this in writing because for me I feel as if I accomplished something and with minimal complaining.